santa baby, where'd you go?

aaw i'm not celebrating christmas this year and i'm bummed.
everone thinks its about the presents and eating the christmas dinner and all materialistic stuff but its not. the truth is CHRISTMAS IS MY FAVOURITE HOLIDAY and i look forward to it every year. if u don't celebrate the holiday then you jus don't get it.
it'll be the first time since never that i'm not celebrating christmas.. this year i won't be getting any presents under a tree, goin to church (for the only time in the year), eating turkey and escargo on chrismas eve, dress up silly with my sis, or listen to the fairy lights on our tree, or sing random xmas songs around the house (i guess i can still do that in indonesia), or open presents on christmas morning, or carry out all those tiny christmas rituals that we've accumulated over teh years.
i think i'l stop now... its making me sad. sigh. so many things have changed thsi year i guess one more change can't hurt can it? well guess again.